This is something I wrote that I have forgotten to post... may we always find inspiration in everything and everyone around us.
At 30...
Yes, i have turned 30 today, the 3rd of March 2009. A big change has come to my life, since I got married 3 years ago and gave birth to our little love a year ago... I thought the new chapter in my life began there. But somehow it ended there and started anew just a month ago... and a month ago it seems that my world is falling apart. Everything is dark around me and I literally cannot think straight.
I have fear, a deep sorrow in my heart. I scream alot for peace in my mind... and began to grope for air... I realised how precious breathing is and then began to find my faith again. I cannot regret anything behind me that has led me to this day. I cannot let the past haunt me forever though... I must let it go, let it all go.
the 30th year in my life, I learned to count my blessings... the kisses I receive, the sunshine, the dimpled angel beside me... and the calloused hands that hold me. I am wholeheartedly thankful for this day. This evening just before the simple dinner party with my family, I asked myself... will I be given another 30 years? Or 30 more days? But I know the answer is beyond me, I just have faith that no matter how many dark chapters come, I know there will be hundreds and hundreds of pages written of hope for me, for this soul.
I know i will be continued to be blessed in this life, may I be a blessing to everyone too.
I am thankful for all the loves in my life.
I am thankful for you.
and I am thankful I had the chance to turn 30.
JacelynDarelam 03March2009
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
It's Your Birthday Today
And so you pray in the morning for a lovely day.
Your baby greets you with a smile at 8am, it feels like she's telling you mommy you look lovely today.
Although she cannot talk yet, the eyes of the little angel lights up when you kiss her sweet dimpled cheeks.
It's your birthday today and so you receive a lovely message from your husband,
Reminding you how sweet the day is and a gift is waiting on the bed.
Lazy bones and sleepy head over the pillow, you close your eyes again instead,
Remembering his sweet thoughts over and over in your head.
It's your birthday today so your alarm clock rings again, you remind yourself to start the day with a smile and not with a sigh or a heavy feeling.
You started to stretch and yawn and pray again.
What a lovely day! You thank the Lord, for the air in your lungs for the joy in your heart.
You thank Him for the wisdom and courage and the great feeling.
It’s your birthday today and you begin to live and laugh.
You look ahead not with a sigh, not with a grave heart. But you look ahead with a promise of love.
It’s your birthday today and so you order pizza, mom cooked salmon.
You say grace, look around the faces that love you, and smile to yourself; what a lovely day to be born!
JacelynDarelam 03/03/2009
Your baby greets you with a smile at 8am, it feels like she's telling you mommy you look lovely today.
Although she cannot talk yet, the eyes of the little angel lights up when you kiss her sweet dimpled cheeks.
It's your birthday today and so you receive a lovely message from your husband,
Reminding you how sweet the day is and a gift is waiting on the bed.
Lazy bones and sleepy head over the pillow, you close your eyes again instead,
Remembering his sweet thoughts over and over in your head.
It's your birthday today so your alarm clock rings again, you remind yourself to start the day with a smile and not with a sigh or a heavy feeling.
You started to stretch and yawn and pray again.
What a lovely day! You thank the Lord, for the air in your lungs for the joy in your heart.
You thank Him for the wisdom and courage and the great feeling.
It’s your birthday today and you begin to live and laugh.
You look ahead not with a sigh, not with a grave heart. But you look ahead with a promise of love.
It’s your birthday today and so you order pizza, mom cooked salmon.
You say grace, look around the faces that love you, and smile to yourself; what a lovely day to be born!
JacelynDarelam 03/03/2009
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